Well that was longer than I expected…
I’m referring to my hiatus–what were you thinking!?
It has been so long since I last posted that I didn’t even remember what my last update was. After doing a quick search, I had posted about my internal struggle with receiving my COVID vaccine before… well, before much of anyone else really (that’s what happens when you work for the health department during a pandemic; first dibs and all). So what have I been up to? What has been keeping me away from my blog for all this time? I’ll give you one guess…
My role in my health district is the Executive Assistant to the Director; it sounds more official than it is really. Essentially, I do whatever my director asks me to do. Provide monthly newsletters for the district to keep moral up and staff updated; no problem. Get a Commercial Driver’s License to drive a converted school bus/mobile health clinic around to provide services to neighborhoods with poor access to transportation and/or healthcare; I’m your girl! Manage every nursing home/home aid placement covering 4 counties and 1 city; got it covered. So when my director texted me the day before returning to work from spending Christmas away saying I needed to show up at a local church on my first day back to help run our first community immunization clinic, I said: “What time do I need to be there?”
From my return to work on January 4th I worked every weekday (and some Saturdays) from that church location through the end of March. By March we outgrew the church and bounced from a high school to another church, to a basketball arena, then to a football stadium. My role throughout all of this: gate keeper logistics manager which is a fancy way to say: I was in charge of the schedule. Do you know how intense it is to schedule 1,000+ anxious people a day to receive their vaccine and not just schedule them, but enforce the mandated vaccination tier system our governor pulled out of his ass? Or what it’s like to be publicly ridiculed day after day by angry men and women thrice my age demanding to be vaccinated even though they didn’t meet the criteria we were following at the time? I can’t tell you how many times people have threatened me, cursed at me, or demanded to speak with my supervisor (who 10 times out of 10 had my back). I have had many a panic attack these past few months and no time to see my therapist; imagine that…
As I tried to explain to Becky: “I constantly feel this very intense mix of extreme stress and success. I feel like I’m playing catchup with no real end in sight. I use up all of my physical energy and mental capacity as a public servant and feel my personal life (experiences and relationships) are suffering. I find myself saying “I don’t get paid enough for this” then offering to work late or cover a weekend shift. I feel like I and my team have been critiqued, bullied, and criticized more than appreciated, thanked, and supported and our so-called leaders in our state capitol (the ones holed up in their basements barking orders at us frontliners) are too proud, ignorant, or indifferent to acknowledge my district’s overachiever status and instead demands more more more while serving us roadblocks time and time again.”
All this to say, I’ve been busy. And when I’m not busy, I’m exhausted. And when I have the time and energy to write something for my blog, I’m not feeling creative. Ya’ll know what it’s like; writing can be a fickle hobby.
Now I can’t promise I’m back, back. I’d love to be able to get back to posting on a semi-regular basis, but if there’s one thing we have all learned throughout this pandemic, it’s that the only constant is change and if you aren’t adaptable, you will not survive.
Onto a more positive update on life. Here are some things that have happened that I would have written about if I had the motivation:
- I received my second dose of the Moderna vaccine on January 26th; 4 weeks, 6 days after my first dose. I wanted to wait at least 6 weeks since I’m young and my immune system is strong, but we had some leftover doses that we didn’t want to go to waste at the end of the day, so I offered up my arm, and whew boy, that second dose knocked me on my butt. I was in bed for 2 full days with a fever, chills, body aches, migraine level headache, nausea–I was in rough shape. I went to work 3 days after receiving my second dose and everyone that saw me told me I should have been at home; I was as “pale as a ghost”, couldn’t stop shaking, and my BP was resting around 90bpm. I stuck it out for the day and by the weekend I was back to myself.
- My husband is now a fully fledged American citizen! I went with him when he went to do the interview portion in the hopes of surprising him with a fully Americana-themed hotel room upon his return. I had grand plans of purchasing balloons, streamers, confetti, even an apple pie, but moments before my return to our hotel with only a single helium balloon and some streamers did he call me and say he was ready to be picked up. I rushed up to our room, threw the streamers haphazardly across the room and tied the only flag balloon the party store had that said, “Welcome Home” to the desk chair. He was pleasantly surprised and we went out in search of an apple pie together afterwards, but I still feel as though my plans were miserably dashed. Oh well.
- I celebrated my 29th Birthday with a boudoir photoshoot (for those that don’t know, I essentially dressed in lingerie and had professional photos done). I spent most of the day with just the photographer (who brought me cupcakes!) and had a nice dinner with my family. I will be getting my photos back in a few weeks and I’m so excited to see them!
- My community has made international news for the ongoing sign war that’s been happening and I’ve been loving every second of it! If you see a sign war creeping into your community, it may very well be because of my hometown. If you’re interested in following along, they have a Facebook group where people share the latest digs. If you like puns and creative marketing tactics, I highly recommend it. 🙂
- For my Christmas present this year, Fella surprised me with a trip to Nashville (planned for and celebrated at the end of April) complete with an AirBnB rental, a helicopter tour of the city at sunset, and a zip lining excursion. Along with the planned events, we partook in some indoor, black lit mini golf and laser maze, saw a laser light show set to some of Elton John’s greatest hits at a planetarium, and completed 5 escape rooms, 2 of which were some of the best we’ve ever experienced! I hope to do a deep-dive post about our trip soon. We had an absolute blast visiting Music City and hope to find our way back.
And next up on the agenda, my belated birthday trip to Charlotte, NC for some hang gliding (and probably some more escape rooms) at the end of the month!
I hope you have been keeping sane these last few months. Tell me something you’re looking forward to in the comments; I’ve missed my blogging community!