So I got shot… THE shot. The one people are currently demanding… the same people who refuse to wear a mask and think this virus is a hoax. Yes, I got my first dose of the two dose Moderna COVID vaccine and I’m struggling internally asking: why me?
It’s not that I’m ungrateful to be one of the first people in my community to receive it, but that’s just it: should I be one of the first?
I’m young-not the demographic this virus is ravaging. I’m relatively healthy-I go to the gym 3-4 times a week and try to keep a balanced diet; everything in moderation they say… I have no preexisting conditions that effect my heart or lungs, nor am I immunocompromised. So why me?
When my boss flew into my office yesterday and asked if I’d like the vaccine, I couldn’t help but pause before graciously accepting. In that brief moment before responding, I couldn’t help but think about the thousands of people who are more at risk than me.
Why am I able to get vaccinated before my grandma? My grandmother is 85 years old. That alone is reason enough for her to get it before me, but she also just underwent a mastectomy last week making her more susceptible to any sickness, especially this virus. And yet it will be weeks before she gets hers.
And my mom who is the full time caretaker for my grandma… can I just let her have my doses? I’d prefer she is better protected from this virus so she doesn’t have to worry about her safety or putting her mom at risk caring for her everyday.
I’m told to look at it similar to the airplane disaster scenerio: the parent should mask himself/herself before masking the child; protect yourself before protecting others. Sure, I get it, but I’ve been working COVID testing clinics since March; two, three, sometimes even four days a week. I’ve made it this long without getting sick, so is it all that imperative that I get vaccinated before the high risk populations? According to the CDC, the health department, my boss, and even my parents: yes. I just don’t know if I feel the same way.
On another note, for those who are curious about my experience… when I got the shot I didn’t feel anything (but we have phenomenal nurses that know their way around a syringe) and my arm was tender for the rest of the day. Today I’m feeling pretty lethargic and my arm is quite sore, but that’s it. To be honest my menstrual cramps are much worse than the side effects from the shot (sorry gentlemen).
So at this point, what’s done is done and I just need to move on and be grateful for my circumstances. I’ll get there eventually.
Merry Christmas my friends. I hope Santa brings you everything you wished for.